The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have … by Mark Nepo
January 2
“It’s such a simple thing, but in a moment of ego we refuse to put down what we are carrying in order to open the door. Time and time again, we are offered the chance to truly learn this: We cannot hold on to things and enter. We must put down what we carry, open the door, and then take up only what we need to bring inside”
I have been spending the past few days meditating on what it is that I need to let go of in order to breach any of the thresholds upon which I currently find myself. I have found this to be a much more difficult task than I expected.
While reflecting on this I couldn’t help but notice some small irony to the fact that when it comes to material possessions I do not hold on to anything. I am the complete opposite of a packrat, giving away or throwing away all but the most necessary and/or prized possessions. I have very little attachment to 99% of my personal belongings. Apparently, however, I am extremely attached to my non-material possessions, most of which are nothing more than excess baggage weighing me down and holding me back! I have to laugh at the stupidity of it all!
I seem to be so attached to the things I should be letting go of, that I can hardly allow myself to consider the mere possibility of putting them down for even a short moment! Why am I emotionally attached to my self-doubt and insecurities? So attached, that thinking about leaving them behind fills me with defensiveness and a dread that just makes no sense!?!?
I clearly need to reflect on this one a bit more …
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